Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Journaling for 11.20.12… Thoughts on Loyalty

7:03 AM

Psalm 119:58…I have seen the disloyal and feel disgust because they do not keep your Word.

Loyalty. That is a character quality I admire and it goes to the top of my list. I have always been a "company man". Like Sackett always said in Lamore's western classics: "I ride for the brand."

I admire those who are loyal to their church, for example, and keep the commitment they made when they first joined it. Through thick and thin they pray for, minister to, and protect the back of every member and pastor.

Disloyals cut and run when things aren't perfect; when they aren't appreciated the way they feel they deserve; when they aren't included in "the loop" for every decision. Disloyals withhold their pledge to support the church with tithes and offerings; with prayers and compassion; with heartfelt support.

Yes, I have seen the disloyal and feel disgust…especially when they greet me in public as if we're old friends and buddies -- as if nothing ever happened; as if the knife is not still in my back. They never gossiped about the church; they never criticized the pastor and called for his dismissal (as if they could dismiss the calling of God); they never bad-mouthed the church or the pastor to others in the community; they never suggested a new church start -- dividing the Bride of Christ -- where they and other disloyals could go do it their way.

Grace, compassion and forgiveness can mend the rift disloyals have created, but it requires confession, sorrow, and repentance. Confession, sorrow and repentance on one side…grace, compassion, and forgiveness on the other. Just like our relationship to God when we violate His trust and are disloyal to Him. Confession, sorrow and repentance on our part. Grace, compassion and forgiveness on His part. Unity is possible -- like anything else -- through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Journaling for 11.13.12 … God’s Word is sweet to my taste

5:40 AM Psalm 119

I love Your teaching, Lord (97), as I meditate on it throughout the day. The Word reveals more and more about You, but produces both joy and sorrow in me. Joy because of Your truth and salvation; sorrow because of my failures and sins. I must depend completely upon Your mercy and grace for salvation…I have nothing of value to bring to the table.

How sweet is Your Word to my taste (103). So many find it bitter, Lord, but I find You and things about You in Your Word. Help me to understand it; help me to obey it.

Father, forgive my sins and cleanse me -- not just because I ask, but because of Your grace and the work of Jesus on the cross. How terrible and glorious the cross is. The terrible part was the darkness of my sin in effect that day. The glorious part is how Your grace and love overcame my darkness. Thank You, Lord, for so great a salvation!

Friday, November 2, 2012

Journal for 11.02.12 My Portion

5:19 AM

Psalm 119:57-64

Lord, You are my portion…You are enough for me. You have blessed me with "things", and friends, and family. But there are times when this is not enough. My soul needs You most of all. Forgive the times, and there have been many, when I have pursued other things more than You.

All around me You keep saying "here I am"…in nature, in the Word, in people, by Your Spirit speaking to my spirit. You are proactive in this relationship. You started it. All I can do is say thank You, Father.

"I don't know why Jesus loved me; I don't know why He cared; I don't know why He sacrificed His life; but I'm glad, so glad He did."

I am a friend (63) to all who fear You…at least I want to be. I know You want us to be one; to love one another. We don't do that very well. Just help me to do my part in the unity of the Body.

Father, in Jesus' Name, I want to thank You for all my blessings…my family, my salvation, my health, my ministry, and so much more. Thank You for Heaven, Lord. Thank You for helping me as a child to understand enough to embrace You as my Savior. Cleanse me and forgive me, Lord. Help me be second.