Journal portion for 02-29-12…Faithful God

Psalm 59 Leap Day

Lord, I will sing of Your strength and will joyfully proclaim Your faithful love in the morning (16). In spite of my own failings, You have been a stronghold for me, a refuge in days of trouble. Yes, I begin this morning giving You praise for Your grace, compassion and love. There is no one like You. You have all the power and are the source of light and life for everyone.

Forgive my sins. If You will, cleanse me and fill me with Your Spirit. I have no basis on which to pray except the Name and blood of the Lord Jesus Christ -- the One that was crucified for me; rose from the dead for me; and one day is coming back for me.

Place, if You will in Jesus' Name, a hedge of protection around my family today; help us keep our heads up in spiritual alertness; help us live for You today. Hedge in and protect my church family; help us to grow in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and man; fill us with Your Spirit.

You are my stronghold; I sing praises to You (17)…You are faithful God. Be first today, Lord, and help me be second.~

Journal portion for 02-28-12… Thank You, Lord

Good morning, Lord! Just a thank You for my salvation; my life; my ministry; my family; and a personal, intimate relationship with You. The depth of Your love will never be understood, but I am grateful for it. Your grace and mercy, Lord, are awesome and wonderful. Thank You for saving me and opening my eyes -- quickening my spirit -- so that I could receive You and put my faith, however imperfect, in You.

Journal portion for 02-20-12…So glad God isn’t like me!

Psalm 50

Father, I know You will judge me and that I will have nothing to plead except the sacrifice of Jesus on my behalf. I don't for a minute think You are like me (21) and that You will forget what I have or haven't done. I will appeal to Your love, compassion and mercy, Lord.

And today I offer You a thank offering (14,23). Thank You for so very much…my salvation, my family, my health, my ministry. Mostly, thank You for Your Son, Jesus Christ. Thank You for desiring an intimate, personal relationship with me. Help me to order my conduct (23) in ways that will please You.

I do not for a moment think You are like me (21), otherwise You would have vaporized me long ago; I would never have experienced Your grace; I would not know the release and freedom of Your mercy. No, You are not like me…for that I give You eternal praise and glory. Have the preeminence today, Lord. I am second.~

Journal portion for 02-16-12…My family; my life…thank You

9:23 AM @ main office/after bus run

Lord, I have to give You praise and glory for what You have done in the lives of my children and their spouses. Hedge them in, please, in the Name of Jesus Christ and the power of His blood…because of Your merit, not mine, and not theirs. I appeal to Your grace and compassion. Thank You for my wife of 42 years. Wow, what a treasure she is! Fill us all with Your Spirit of wisdom today and in the days to come.

Thank You for my life. And thank You for sparing my life from hell and everlasting punishment. I don't want to be cast out of Your presence, and I know that I am safe because of the power of Christ's blood and the depth of Your love for me. Certainly I have nothing to bring to the table. All I have is Jesus -- and I believe that is enough.

Be praised and glorified today through my family. Please, Lord, help us be second and give You the preeminence. ~

Journal portion for 02-13-12…God’s presence

5:58 AM, Psalm 73

Father, without question, God's presence is my good! (28). That's my thought and prayer as I begin this day and week. I ask for Your presence Jehovah-Shammah. Forgive my sins and wash me with the blood of Your precious Son, Jesus Christ. Fill me with Your Spirit of wisdom. Help me, dear Spirit, to be conscious of Your presence in me and around me. Be glorified today somehow. I am second.~

Journal for 02-08-12…How He knows and loves me

5:45 AM, Psalm 38

Father, You know all my thoughts -- good and bad; righteous and sinful; Godly and self-centered. I can't hide anything from You. You know my heart's desire, whether right or wrong. I praise You for having the power to know me, and for love that surrounds me at the same time. I can't get my mind around it: how much You despise sin and how much You love me. You are surely justified in whatever judgment You make. But make that judgment based on the merit of Your Son, Jesus Christ, and the power of His blood; not on the merit of my sin and integrity. You are worthy to be praised and exalted for ever and ever. And by Your grace, Father, that's exactly what I will do.

Heaven is not so much about the glory and splendor of the place, but about the One that occupies the throne there. It's about You being with Your people. So, as I think of Heaven, I think of being in Your presence…face to face.

Be glorified in this fallen world today through Your people scattered about the globe. We are a remnant, but help us live out Your love, Your grace, and Your forgiveness. I am second.~

Journal for 02-07-12…Trusting God

5:41 AM, Psalm 37

Thank You, Father, for the reminder to trust in You. I do not need to make my own way, but rather commit my way to You, trust in You, and then You will act. Your support is far better than anything else.

Fill me with Your Spirit today, Lord. I cannot do this apart from Your grace and power. I need Your wisdom and guidance.

Thank You, Lord, for recently answered prayer and guidance. May I, and my family, follow You, live for You, and stay close to You at all times.

I ask Your forgiveness for being agitated (8) by others that prosper in their way. We will have enough. I trust You to care for us…based on Your love, not my own merit but the merit of Jesus Christ and the powerful glory of His Name.

I am second.~

Journal for 02-06-12…His faithful love

5:42 AM, Psalm 36

Father, Your faithful love reaches to the heavens; Your faithful love is so valuable that people take refuge in the shadow of Your wings; spread Your faithful love over those who know You. For with You is life's fountain. In Your light we will see light. Wherever I go, whatever I do, Your faithful love is there.

Thank You, Lord Jesus, for loving me faithfully…even when I am unfaithful, You are true and dependable. You pursue me for some reason. I am deeply sorry for the sins and selfishness that has separated us at times. Even then, Your faithful love remained in pursuit.

For Your continued care and protection, I thank You. For the guidance You have given to my family, I thank You. For dying in my place and then making it known to this heart of flesh, I thank You.

May Jesus, the Lord of creation, the King of glory, and the Lamb that was slain be glorified today. Until You come…I am second.~

Journal for 02-03-12…Acknowledging God

5:47 AM, Psalm 33

Lord, the whole earth will one day tremble before You (8), but not yet. The world does not look to You, nor does it acknowledge You or Your law. Neither does it embrace Your grace and mercy.

But for now, in my heart, I acknowledge You and embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ. I thank You for opening my eyes and helping me see the truth that is You.

Be first in my life. I am second.~

Journal portion for 02-02-12…Simple thanks

5:41 AM, Psalm 32

What an awesome and wonderful God You are. You forgive sin and give instruction; You protect and give counsel. You are sovereign, yet You are intimate and close.

Thank You for the salvation revealed to me. Thank You for Jesus Christ, Your Son, giving Himself to pay my debt. Every good and perfect gift is from You, so there is so much to be thankful for!

Please give me wisdom, endurance and energy today. Be glorified somehow in my life. I am second.~

Journal portion for 2-01-12…He leads and guides

5:45 AM, Psalm 31

Father, in the big scheme of things -- in a world with millions of people -- I'm just one more person, one more address, one more tax payer among many. Yet, You love me and know me. You know my name and personality, weaknesses and strengths. You thought my life and my soul of such worth that You gave Your Son to die for all my sins. I praise You, Almighty God, for the details. I am one of those "details" of Your creation … and You never forget the details. I will one day praise You in a place where my worship is unimpeded by my sins and other distractions. It will be pure worship from a redeemed and grateful heart.

You lead me and guide me because of Your Name.(3) In the meantime, I am here. Each day I make plans that I pray will glorify You; I think of my future and the things You would want me to do; and I depend upon You to lead me and guide me.

Walk with me today…let's talk. I may even sing You a song or two! As You lead and guide remain first in my life. I am second.~

Journal portion for 01-31-12… God’s faithful love

5:34 AM, Psalm 31

Father, I come with praise for all You have made; for all You sustain; for all You rightfully rule. I am grateful that You are holy and righteous, for no one would stand a chance when facing eternity; life on earth would be terrifying; all would be dark and hopeless.

But there is hope and the promise of eternal life! That's something that only You could do!

The course of my life is in Your power (15). I trust You and wait for You to direct my paths. You faithful love (7,16,21) has been shown to me in times of difficulty and conflict. So I will love the Lord; remain a faithful one; and be strong and courageous -- for all this I would need Your help and protection.

Be first today, Lord Jesus. I am second.~

Journal for 01.30.12 … Praising my God

5:44 AM, Psalm 30

Father, You are good to me. You give me blessings I can't even count. You have lifted me up (1,2) and not allowed my enemies and detractors to triumph over me. And when I cried to You for help, You healed me. There is no reason for me to complain or be depressed or give up. You spared me (3) from among those going down to death. I depend, now, upon Your grace, love and compassion. Rather than be pitiful I will sing to the Lord (4) and praise His holy Name. Praise God that Your anger only lasts a moment but Your favor last a lifetime (5).

Lord, listen to me and be gracious to me; be my Helper (10). I am only human, living in a cursed and fallen world. Yet, I want to be with You; be on Your side; bring a smile to Your face; please You in some way.

Help me to remember all that You have done for me and that it's a cause for rejoicing not sorrow. Help me to sing to You and not be silent. Lord, I will praise You forever. And one day, I will praise You unobstructed by the flesh, the world, and the devil. It will be in Your presence; in Your house; in Your Kingdom.

Thank You, Christ Jesus, for the awful pain an sacrifice You endured for me -- I will never know all You did for me…and are still doing for me. What love! What compassion! What grace! I am truly second.~

Journal portion for 01-27-12… Waiting

5:48 AM, Psalm 27

Father, You are magnificent, glorious, and wonderful. You made all things with just a word; and You sustain all that You have made. You designed salvation for sinners and way back to You for the lost. For that I thank You (and my mere words fall far short of the praise You deserve).

Waiting is not easy, Lord. I live in an "instant" world. Instant results, fast food, and instant gratification -- that's the fallen world I live in. Help me, however, to wait on You (14) and be courageous. Help my heart to be strong as I wait. I know that the best for me, and Your Kingdom, will come if I wait for Your timing. I don't want to get ahead of You…as I often do.

And as I wait I will pray and prepare so that when the time comes I will be ready and useful.

You are the God of my salvation (9) and I know You care for me. Be Lord today. I am second.~

Journal for 01-26-12…Simple morning prayer

5:43 AM, Psalm 26

Father, You know all about me. You know my heart and my thoughts. Examine my heart and mind and help me to see my failings (2). Also, show me Your ways and guide me in Your paths; help me think Your thoughts. Keep Your faithful love before my eyes and help me live by Your truth.

I want to live today, even in the busy-ness of life and ministry, in Your presence -- raising my voice to You in praise and thanksgiving; I want to tell about Your wonderful works (7).

Redeem me. Be gracious to me. Help me stand on level ground and praise You. (11,12)

I will not make worthless men and evildoers my associates, but focus my association on You and Your dwelling place.

I appeal to You in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, and depend upoin Your love, grace, and compassion for my life. I am second. ~

Journal portion 01-25-12…Personal Lord

5:41 AM, Psalm 25

Lord, I appeal to Your compassion and faithful love. I trust in You; I wait for You (3). Make Your ways known to me and guide me (4,5); but guide me in Your way. You are the God of my salvation. Remember me because of Your goodness, not mine (7). As a matter of fact, I seek Your forgiveness on the basis of Your Name, Lord.

The secret counsel of the Lord is for those who fear Him (14). I desire and ask for that secret counsel, Father. Fill me with Your Spirit today and converse with me; show me Your ways; be gracious to me (16).

How amazing, how marvelous, that someone like me could have an intimate relationship with His holy and powerful Creator. I can appeal to You personally; talk to You personally; seek counsel and guidance from You personally. This is all possible because Your Son, Jesus Christ, died for me, paid for my sins, and draws me to You. Thank You, Lord, so very much. I will have eternity to give You praise and repay You -- or attempt to -- by holy and unpolluted service. That will be awesome.

But for today, forgive my sins and fill me with Your Spirit. Open my eyes to Your Word. We will talk often today. You be first; I am second.~

Journal portion for 01/24/12…The glorious gospel

5:49 AM, 2 Corinthians 4 & 5

The Gospel, Lord, is glorious. Without it our eyes are veiled and we cannot see the things that are eternal. The gospel should make a difference in the way we think and act, because the gospel opens our eyes to light through Jesus Christ.

Religion is just another form of the enemies darkness--the veil he puts over men's eyes. We must not let "religion" creep into our church and our worship. It only hides the glory of Christ.

Lord Jesus, thank You for the gospel in my life. Thank You for removing the veil that blinded my eyes from seeing You. The day I turned to You the veil was removed. Of course that doesn't mean I instantly knew everything or was at once a spiritual giant, but my heart's eyes were able to see You and comprehend the truth.

Our churches are stuck in their ways -- not the things they do (well, most of the time) but in the lack of joy, insight, and life that comes from the very gospel we confess. Help us to see You, Lord, and follow after Your Spirit. Rather, and I'll make it personal, help me to see You and follow Your Spirit. I am second.~

Journal portion for 01/23/12…The 23rd Psalm

5:41 AM, Psalm 23

Lord, what blessings You freely give to those who love You. You are a shepherd that refreshes me and guides me along chosen paths. I pray that I would want You more and more, and anything else less and less. We have been through some dark hours together and You were always with me. I suppose there will be other dark days ahead…I trust You will be with me then, too.

Forgive my sins and fill me with Your Spirit. I want to be in the place where You are able to be my advocate in the face of enemies. You give my life purpose and meaning like someone anointed to serve You -- someone designated for a particular ministry or mission. Help me stay focused on the big picture; on Your Kingdom's purpose.

Your faithful love will always be with me until I am finally home with You. May I dwell in Your presence -- now, as I worship and pray; later in the throne room of Heaven.

To God be the glory, great things He has done. So loved He the world that He gave us His Son! Help me be second.~

Journal portion for 01/20/12… Prayer and the right things

5:35 AM, Psalm 20

Lord, I want to thank You today for so many things…my life, my salvation, my family, a ministry to serve You, and so much more. You are very gracious and merciful to me. Sometimes You act in response to my prayers, and other times You're just good to me because You love me and I belong to You. The prayer (4) is may God give you what your heart desires and fulfill your whole purpose. My prayer, however, to desire the right things and that my purpose would be right and true. Yes, I would like for You to fulfill all my requests (5) but I want my requests to be for the right things and according to Your purpose.

Thank You for the victories I've experienced over the years, and I thank You for the victory You bought and paid for with Your blood. Forgive my sins and cleanse me -- I appeal to Your grace, love and compassion…I offer no merit of my own. All that is good about me is You.

I will try to make my prayers unselfish and the kind that would honor and expand Your Kingdom, and Your church. Yes, answer my prayers, but fill me with Your Spirit and give me wisdom so that my prayers are about the right things.

I am second.~

Journal for 01/19/12…Creation’s Testimony

5:39 AM, Psalm 19

It is true, my Father in Heaven, that the created universe, without speaking a single audible word, declare and proclaims Your glory…that there is a supreme, masterful designer and maker of everything.(1-4) It is a wise person, then, that hears Your instruction and listens to the testimony of nature (7).

Cleanse me today from sin and keep my from willful sins (12,13) and do not let them rule over me. My actions are one thing, but I pray that even my thoughts and the meditations of my heart would be acceptable to You (14). I don't think that is possible until we get home and are freed from this fallen world and the tendencies of our human nature; but I would still pray that my thoughts would increasingly please You.

Your Word established the world, set the boundaries, revealed Your laws, and came in the flesh to save me! How amazing You are! Help me revel in the glory revealed in Your creation today.

Deuteronomy 3:19-20

Choose life. This is the source of the pro-life movement's motto. There are some good reasons to choose life and honor the life God has created known as human beings: 1. The Creation Doctrine; 2. The Incarnation Doctrine; 3. The Salvation Doctrine. (Some meditations today, Lord).

I am second.~

Journal portion for 01/18/12…Just praising God for who He is

5:36 AM, Psalm 18

Father, I come as a grateful child today and give You praise. It is good to recount the many times You have delivered me from difficult circumstances, hateful people, and hard times…and my own foolishness. I remember how You have helped me. I called to You who is worthy of praise (3) and I was saved many times. I know that when I cry to You that You hear me (6). You have been my support and have often brought me out the place where I was to a wider, better place. (18,19). It is Your way to bless Your people, to show Yourself strong, to show compassion and grace to the humble -- not the perfect or holy, but to the humble. You, and You alone, can illuminate my darkness and lead the way. (28)

You way is perfect and Your Word is pure. There is no one else like You; no God besides You; no Rock but the God who saves, loves, and helps (30,31). Be praised today, Lord … if not on earth, then in heaven. But right now, this moment in time, I want to praise You for Your grace, love and compassion. It is to Your grace, love, and compassion that I appeal.

Today I will praise You; today I will sing to You and about You. You are loyal to Your own. Thank You, Lord, for making me Your own through the extraordinary work of Jesus and the shedding His blood for me. You have bought the right to my life. Help me put You first and make me second. I am second.~

Journal for 01/17…He will answer me

Psalm 17

Father, today I desire to honor You and please You somehow. Guard me and hide me from my enemies (8,9). David wanted His enemies thrown down and destroyed but I just want peace from them…I would be happy if my detractors were converted to You and would just follow Your ways. I know that I am not perfect, but my Savior is; I have no merit of my own to offer You, but my Redeemer does; I have no sacrifice great enough to offer to You, but my Lord does. So in His Name I am able to pray with confidence that You will hear me.

I know this, Lord: I will see Your face in righteousness (Yours and mine); and when I awake, I will be satisfied with Your presence (15). But until the day that I see You in person I will call on You because You will answer; You will listen closely and hear what I say (6). Thank You for hearing my prayers and caring for what happens to me and those I love.

Walk with me today and talk with me. Forgive my sins and fill me with Your Spirit. May You be my reason for living and the object of my affections. Guard not only me but all You have given me…my family, my church, my ministry, my health, my heart. I am second.~

Journal for 01/13…Thank You, Father

5:37 AM, Psalm 13

Father, there are always those who would be glad to see me fail, or see me hurt, or see my defeat. Why is it that way? What do they gain? You are faithful no matter what. I will always appeal to Your grace, love and compassion. No one has, especially me, has any standing before You without the merit you have imputed. Because of Jesus Christ I no longer am Your enemy. You took the initiative to help, save, and rescue me. There are others, who claim to belong to You, that have not learned the lessons of grace, forgiveness, and love. I just pray, Father, that I am becoming more like You and less like them.

Consider me, Lord, and answer me (3). Help me be patient with the process -- I know You are. Let Jesus, not the things of earth, be the source of brightness to my eyes (3).

I have trusted in Your faithful love (5) and becoming more victorious every day because of it. My heart rejoices in Your deliverance…first, from the second death through the blood of Jesus; second, from my self, my ways, my sins; and third, from the pains and distractions and conflicts of life (deliverance is not complete, but it's a process and I believe Your promises).

I will sing, in my heart and aloud, because of Your generosity toward me (6). I have so many blessings, and rather than complain about all the negatives, Lord, I want to thank You for all the good things -- all of them undeserved -- that You have generously given. My salvation, for example. Then there's my family, my father and mother, my wife and children; and my health, Lord; the calling and gifts for ministry You have given me. Then, of course, there's the promise and eventual realization, of the New Heaven and New Earth with You seated, ruling, and being worshiped right in the middle of it all!

You have blessed me, bless me still -- mostly with Your presence, not so much with things. Forgive my sins and cleanse me, then fill me with Your Spirit, Lord. Walk with me. Talk with me. Here my prayers. Help me be second.~

Journal portion for 01/11…God’s heavenly throne

5:30 AM, Psalm 11

I believe, Lord, that You are on Your throne (4). Your throne is in Heaven -- apart from, and untouched by, the corruption and sin of this world. I am so grateful that the ultimate power and authority in the universe is good, kind, loving, holy, gracious -- not mean; vengeful, not ready to harm. You know the hearts of all people (5). No one is beyond Your reach.

The righteous have a daunting task ahead, Lord. The world is not conducive to men and women of holy vision and righteous intent. It is a cursed and fallen earth I live in. I want to thank You for saving me from the effects of sin and from my self -- from my tendencies to march in step with the world. For as the ultimate power in the universe You have chosen to save individuals and devised a way to do it. Thank You for Jesus; thank You for the cross.

When the foundations are destroyed, what can the righteous do? (3) The foundations of our nation have been systematically chipped away since the beginning, but more so in recent years. The foundations upon which the church is built have been chipped away, too. No longer does Jesus have the preeminence in many quarters. The hearts of believers are blind and deaf to the Spirit. (I pray it is not so with me).

Thank You, Lord, for the promise of a New Earth and a New Heaven in which Your throne will take center stage! Praise God for the coming day of glory, salvation, and eternal life. I thank You already for the day when I can serve You without a personal agenda, personal sin, and personal weakness. As a new and completed creature I will be able to finally be the person that pleases You in every way…free from distractions and sin.

Until then, it is enough to know that nothing occurs without Your notice and that eventually, in You time and in Your way, all things will be made right. Just let me be a part of it -- not because of my merit, but because of Jesus and His blood, accept me…include me.

I pray for my family and friends today, Lord, and the spheres of influence we all have. May we live for Jesus and benefit from Your hedge of protection. Forgive our sins and fill us with Your Spirit today. May Jesus be first and each of us be second, for You are on Your throne.

Journal for 01/10…God our King in a messed up world

5:48 AM, Psalm 10

Lord, the world continues to act as if there is no accountability to You. Even those who claim to be religious and profess some kind of moral/religious high ground make decisions, oppress the weak, and attack their enemies as if there is no God at all! But whether leaders, rulers, and power brokers realize now or not, You are King forever (16) and the nations will perish from Your land. You respond to the humble (17) the fatherless and oppressed (18). And, Lord, the world is surely full of the humbled, fatherless (Haiti…even here in America, for example), and the oppressed.

The world is a mess and needs redemption. You are the Redeemer. The world needs a good King. You are the King forever and ever. The world needs a Savior. You are that Savior!

I can't do much to affect the world -- not like You can -- but I can attempt to affect "my world" today. Forgive my sins and grant me pardon; fill me with Your Spirit and let me do something for Your Kingdom today. I am second. ~

Journal for 01/09…God in Heaven

5:44 AM, Psalm 9

New starts are a good thing, Lord. I know You are in the business of "new starts" and second chances. So another day is here as well as another week. The old song says, "every day with Jesus is sweeter than the day before; every day with Jesus, I love Him more and more." So, with this new day I begin by praising You for Your overwhelming love and grace. You love pursues me…and that in itself is a amazing. You are in Heaven -- the place of goodness, glory and power. You are, and always will be, the One and Only true God. Lord, revel in Your glory today!

You are seated on Your throne no matter what people do (4) as the righteous Judge. And you will be there forever (9). You are not a judge or a God that abandons Your people -- sometimes we/I forget that. "No never alone, no never alone; He promised never to leave me, never to leave me alone."

Lord Jesus, thank You for the complete and finished sacrifice You paid for me. I have no way of knowing what You went through for me…but I believe it was for me. Forgive my sins and fill me today with Your Spirit. I will talk with You and try to listen throughout the day. Walk with me for this is not an easy path sometimes. Be first. I am second. ~

Journal Portion for 01/06…My Father’s grace

5:39 AM, Psalm 6

Father in Heaven… Your Name should be exalted above all others. Everyone should give You the honor and praise You deserve…but, alas, they don't. The world doesn't seem to be impressed by Your greatness, mercy, grace, love or power. People are not afraid of You -- not even "believers". Perhaps the world is moving to a place where the line will be more clearly drawn between true believers and those that aren't. You, however, will always be worthy of praise and glory; You will have the last word; You will be exalted!

Thank You for loving me and dealing with my sins and weaknesses on the basis of grace (2). You have saved me because of Your faithful love (4), and You continue to "save" me in many of the details of life on the basis of that same great love.

Here's the thing. I know I'm not the shiniest star in Your army or the most effective servant in Your Kingdom, but I am in Your army and I want to serve Your Kingdom. I can't do that if I'm dead (5). So, like David, preserve me, save me, empower me, and protect me. Forgive me sins and fill me with Your Spirit.

I know I disappoint You sometimes -- because I disappoint myself -- but there's where Your grace and mercy come in (2). So accept my prayer on that basis (9). Strengthen and protect me, my family, Your church, this nation and all believers who truly seek to honor You. Be glorified today in thousands of ways around the world, in thousands of dedicated lives. Lord Jesus, be gracious. Be merciful. Be first. I am second.~

Journal portion for 01-05…God’s favor

5:36 AM, Psalm 5

Thank You, Father, for so many things -- all good and perfect gifts that come down from You. Things like my family; my ability to have food and warmth; my salvation; my Bible; and thousands of other things that most of the world does not enjoy. Of course the presence of evil is all around and the specter of America's decline looms large, but the church and Your Kingdom shines brightest in the darkness. May Your Kingdom come, and may Your will be done on this earth, as it certainly is in heaven.

I certainly plead my case to You this morning (3) and watch expectantly for Your response. The only reason I can even approach You is because of Your faithful love…it's not my merit, righteousness, or goodness. I was born in iniquity, but You are my Redeemer. So, I pray with certain things on my heart--with certain guidance requested. Lead me, Lord, in Your righteousness and "make Your way straight before me." I am staying the course and trusting that You are working in ways I cannot see to open the path before me.

Forgive my sins; cleanse me with through the power of Jesus' own blood; and fill me with Your Spirit. May every word I read in the Bible today go deep into my heart and soul.

Yes, Lord, You surround me with favor (12) like a shield; You bless me over and over again. May I remain as faithful to You when the going is rough and times are hard. Be glorified today, Lord. I want You first (even though it doesn't always work out that way), and I want to be second.~

Journal portion for 01-04-12…God’s preeminence

5:34 AM

Father, You have given me another day in which to serve You and give Your glorious Son the preeminence in all things. You, and You alone are worthy of all praise, the Lamb that sacrificed Himself willingly for me. Men like me cannot understand the depth of love and mercy that paid for sin and allows me to serve in Your army. Be glorified today somehow in my life.

Psalm 4

Lord, You have helped me before (1), be gracious to me again and hear my prayer. You and I will talk throughout the day -- I will seek Your guidance and understanding on things; sometimes it will just be conversation between You and I. While I do not know what this day will bring, I know You are there, and You give joy like nothing on earth can (7). Why do people pursue with such energy the happiness that comes from things, from the world, that only disappear? You give more joy -- a kind of settled peace in my heart -- than all the world could provide.

Your church, Lord, the local one that I shepherd, and all Christians around the world face challenges today. Help us all to seek Your Spirit's guidance; Your Son's forgiveness; and Your wisdom. My Christian brothers and sisters that are persecuted, even dying today, because of their loyalty to You…empower them with Your peace in the pain. Others, Lord, who can't even sacrifice a tithe face even a tougher obstacle to serving You -- themselves! Give all of us a clearer understanding of our temporal place here on earth…that home is still ahead of us…and what a home it is!

All praise to the One who died in my place and rose again! Be first. I am second.~

I Am a Soldier

I am a soldier in the army of God. The Lord Jesus Christ is my Commanding Officer. The Holy Bible is my code of conduct. Faith, prayer and the Word are my weapons of warfare. I have been taught by the Holy Spirit, trained by experience, tried by adversity and tested by fire.

I am a volunteer in this army, and I am enlisted for eternity. I will either retire in this army at the Rapture or die in this army. But I will not get out, sell out, be talked out or be pushed out. I am faithful, reliable, capable and dependable.

I am a soldier. If my God needs me, I am there. If He needs me to serve, I am there. If He needs me to teach the Sunday school, to teach the children, to work with the youth, to help adults, to scrub floors, or to just sit and learn. He can use me because I am there!

I am a soldier. I am not a baby. I do not need to be pampered, petted, pumped up, picked up or pepped up. I am not a wimp. I am in place saluting my King, obeying His orders, praising His name and building His kingdom!

I am a soldier. No one has to call me, remind me, write me, visit me, entice me or lure me. No one has to send me flowers, gifts, food, cards or candy, or give me handouts. I do not need to be cuddled, cradled, cared for or catered to.

I am a soldier, fully committed. I cannot have my feelings hurt bad enough to turn me around. I cannot be discouraged enough to turn me aside. I cannot lose enough to cause me to quit.

I am a soldier. The devil cannot defeat me. People cannot disillusion me. Weather cannot weary me. Sickness cannot stop me. Battles cannot beat me. Money cannot buy me. Governments cannot silence me, and hell cannot handle me. I am a soldier.

My God has and will continue to supply all of my needs. I am more than a conqueror and eventually I will triumph. I can do all things through Christ.

I am a soldier. I will follow my Commanding Officer’s orders and endeavor to enlist others into this army. I will also train and equip new recruits to fight the good fight and endure to the end.

When Jesus called me into this army, I had nothing. If I end up with nothing when I retire or die, I will still come out ahead because I will have Him.

I am a soldier in the army of Jesus Christ. Here I stand! Will you stand with me?

Original Author Unknown, Edited Version Copyright © 2012 Darril Deaton

Journal portion for 01/03…Talking to my Father

5:37 AM

Father, there is no way that I could come to You except You draw me. I am fallen by nature, but You are holy and good. You are kind and merciful. There is no limit to Your grace…I'm counting on that. Each day You answer me -- maybe not the way I expect, or the way I would prefer -- but You answer me (4) according to Your wisdom. You must receive all the praise and glory there ever was and ever will be. You deserve it because of Your greatness and care for Your people.

I lie down and sleep; I wake again because the Lord sustains me (5). Waking provides me with another day to serve You. Maybe I'll get it right this time. With Your help, I will be able to please You somehow.

Forgive my sins and cleanse me, then fill me with Your Spirit. Your wisdom, insight, and ability is what I depend on.

I want You to be first this year. I want to take second place in the scheme of my life. You are my salvation (8); it comes from no other. I am second.~

Journal for 12/13…God is good

Psalm 13, 43, 103

Father, as You know, I live in a hostile world. It is cursed and driven by sin. There are forces that pull men away from You, their Salvation, and feed their lust, greed, and selfishness. You have saved me, through the blood of Your Son, from their destiny. You have separated me out and given me a holy purpose for my life. I give You praise today for Your holiness, goodness, kindness, judgment, justice, and mercy. You are the highest God, the ultimate source of power and authority in all the creation…and You are good! Thank You for Your kindnesses toward me: a purpose, a family, my health, a ministry, and eternal life.

Send Your light (43:3) and Your truth to lead me. May they lead me to Your presence and worship and praise. Let them give me clarity and understanding of Your Word and Your way for me.

Only You can cleanse my sin, in the Name of Jesus Christ and the power of His blood…and fill me with Your Spirit. Help me live this day for You and Your Kingdom. I don't want this day to be about me. I am second. ~

Journal portion for 12/11…God is on His throne

5:40 AM

Psalm 11

Father, there seems to be the misconception in the world that You are not engaged -- that You either don't care about what happens to us or that You can’t, or won't, do anything about it. Good people are attached by violent people and mean people can't wait to do harm to the weakest among us. But I believe that You are on Your throne and You are fully engaged. You know the thoughts and intents of our hearts and You hate meanness and cruelty and violence.

Lord, forgive my sins…I want to be on Your side! I know the only good thing about me is You, and that all I have comes from You. I am trusting You with my eternity, and believe that Your Son, Jesus Christ, has suffered harshly in my place. You loved me that much.

Now, I ask the God who reigns, my Father and Redeemer, to forgive me, but also to fill me with Your Spirit today.

Thank You, Lord, for every good and perfect gift that comes from You…my salvation, family, health, and ministry. Nothing I have is of my own doing. May what I have be lived out for You today. Thank You for answered prayer…even prayers that seem unanswered to me. Help me to be patient and wait for Your timing; help me know Your will, for I want to do what is in Your best interest and that of the Kingdom. The only way I can do that is through Kingdom people here on earth.

Please put a strong hedge of protection around my family today; each of us need Your personal protection and blessing. Guard, empower, and grow my church/Your church. Make us worthy of receiving and ministering to new people.

The Lord is in His holy temple; the Lord's throne is in heaven. His eyes watch… (4) To You, most high God goes all glory and praise today…and forever. I am second.~

Journal for 12/09…Revealed

5:45 AM

Father, if You had not revealed Yourself to me, I would never be able to know You. I am not in Your sphere of holiness and majesty and divinity. It takes a revelation of Yourself to me for me to understand. Thank You for coming into my dimension -- a fallen cursed world -- on my level where I could see and understand.

Thank You for the Word of God, written by men who You directed and inspired, so that I could see and understand further. You have not abandoned those who seek You, Lord (10).

Lord, I want to love You with my whole heart; I want to serve You the way You deserve (one thing I look forward to on the new earth is serving You completely and perfectly).

For the rest of this day let's talk…help me abide in You. I am second.~

Journal for 12/08…Magnificence of God

5:31 AM

Lord, I often feel inadequate in Your service and overwhelmed by the enormity of conflicts, adversity and foolishness the world experiences -- and that believers experience. You, however, are always up to the task. And while You do not violate our right to believe or not believe; serve or not serve; follow or not follow You, You always come to those who choose to embrace the gospel and Your Son.

Anyway, I found a prayer by David Brainard yesterday that sums up my prayer this morning: "Lord, let me make a difference for You that is utterly disproportionate to who I am."

That means You would need to empower me -- magnify the results of my service and expand my ministry beyond what I would be able to do on my own. So in Jabez' prayer when he asked that You expand his territory, he may have been talking about land, but I would be talking about Kingdom influence and ministry. Extend my reach; grow my ministry; help me make a difference that is disproportionate to who I am without You.

Holy Spirit…fill me today. My thoughts tend to roam and I drift into other cares and concerns. Bring my focus back to You. I want to be transformed by the renewing of my mind.

Psalm 8

You are magnificent, Lord…You created all things and they shout Your majesty all over the created world. You sent Your Son, Jesus, into the chaos we created by our sins to redeem the world. One day You will restore it all and establish Your magnificent authority once and for all. I plan to be there, Father…as undeserving as I am…because of what Jesus did for me. Be glorified today, Father. The world is on a suicidal course. You, however, are life and light; forgiveness and grace; mercy and redemption.

I am second. ~

Journal for 12/07…The righteous Judge

5:38 AM

Psalm 7

Father, You are the examiner of the thoughts and emotions, and You are a righteous God. You also love me and have provided forgiveness for sins and a way to belong to Your side. Thank You for Your righteousness and Your judgments.

You have ordained a judgment for those who work iniquity and pursue Your people. They are destroyers, not builders; takers, not givers; brazenly godless, not believers in You. You are a righteous judge and I trust in Your ultimate justice.

The world is headed toward trouble, Lord…it always has been. Believers need to forsake sin and be filled with Your Spirit if they are to impact this fallen world with the gospel. Forgive my sins, hedge me in today, Father, in the Name of Your crucified and risen Son, Jesus Christ. Protect my family from harm and the Devil. Protect the believers that I know so that they will live for You in the heat of battle.

You are the righteous Judge who judged my sins on the cross in Your Son; now You must judge the world and unbelievers. I pray many more will be saved before it's too late.

Be glorified, O holy God. Come quickly, Lord Jesus, come. I am second.~

Journal for 12/06…Lord of all

5:38 AM

The weather is cold this morning, Lord…but I have a warm house and warm clothes. Without a doubt, You have blessed me this 62 years. Yet, Father, I still ask for more blessing, especially the presence of Your Spirit and the faithful love that comes from You. You are not just the Creator, but You are the Savior, too.

Psalm 6

Be gracious to me, Lord, for I am weak (2). Weakness is my natural state in this fallen world. Help me through until I'm at home with You in a new earth that is filled with Your holiness, joy, and service.

I only ask that You put a strong hedge of protection around my family in the precious Name of Jesus and the power of His blood. Empower us, and our church people, to fend off the attacks of the Devil and live for You. Be Lord of all. Make me second.~

Journal for 12/05…Morning prayers

5:34 AM

"I hear the rolling thunder, Thy power throughout the universe displayed!" Thank You, Father for the rain. You gave us drought, now You give us relief. The times and seasons are in Your hands; my times and seasons are in Your hands. If people cannot see creation and acknowledge the Creator then how will they ever see and acknowledge the Redeemer He has provided?!

Psalm 5

Listen, Lord, to my prayers…for I pray to You. It's morning and I begin my daylong dialog with You. You must forgive my sins, Lord, for I want to enter Your presence and sin is not permitted there. Thank You for the forgiveness, cleansing, and kindness I have in what Jesus accomplished for me by dying in my place. I can only enter Your house because of Your faithful love, not any merit of my own.

I pray that today, and in things concerning the following days, You would make Your way straight to me. Help me serve Your Kingdom and Your King. I will rejoice in You, shout for joy forever in Your very presence in the New Earth/Heaven.

Protect, Lord, my family in the troubling days ahead of us. The world, this fallen, cursed world, is about to experience the pains of its own godlessness and evil ways. May Your people remain faithful to You and show others the way to Christ, the only Redeemer.

Walk and talk with me today, Lord. Help me be second.~

Journal for 12/02…choosing sides

5:28 AM

Today, Lord, is the beginning of our Prayer Weekend. Fill me with Your Spirit as lead Your people through these activities. Show Yourself to us and hear our prayers and honor our fasts.

Father, You are the glorious One…the only One that gives life and love to us. Thank You for helping me abide in You. May Your Words abide in me today. I pray that the meditations of my heart would be acceptable in Your sight. It's not easy Lord because, first, I am only a man; second, because the world and its cares and its amusements are such a distraction. Abide with me.

Psalm 2

Why do the nations rebel (1)? If God and His Anointed One are the final authority and ultimate power -- and since God is good, and love, and kind -- it doesn't make sense to follow any other course but His ways. Lord, the lines are drawn and I have made a choice. I have chosen to follow You; believe in You; serve You. I don't do so well sometimes, and even at my best I am not the kind of worshiper and servant You deserve. But I choose You over any other. Forgive my failures and sins, and strengthen me in Your grace. I choose You. Thank You, Lord, for choosing me. I am definitely second.~

Journal for 12/01…Meditation

5:35 AM

Well, Lord, we begin a new month. I know that times and seasons are not so consequential to You…time itself is in Your hands. You have the months, days, minutes and seconds numbered until Your Kingdom comes. And Lord, I know my days on earth are numbered, too. I will not always be in this body, but will one day have a new body, on a new New Earth and Heaven -- with You! This I believe.

Sin is so devastating, Lord, on so many levels. It takes its toll on humanity, on my country, on my church, on my family, and on me. Thank You, Lord, for so great a salvation that is received as a gift through the Lord Jesus Christ!

Psalm 1

Lord, I want to meditate on Your Word day and night. I try to be mindful of it throughout the day, even going over certain passages in order to better understand them. But there are so many distractions. I must continue to do my work and uphold my responsibilities and still meditate on Your Word. So please fill me with Your Spirit, Lord. Walk with me; talk with me. Don't abandon me just because my mind wanders onto worldly things. Bring my thoughts back to You. May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord my God and my Redeemer.

I am second.~

Journal for 11/30…Psalm 150

5:31 AM

My Heavenly Father, glory to Your Name. Be exalted -- You are exalted -- in all the universe. The world is a mess, Lord, but You know all about that. Your grace is greater than any and all sin…if only people would/could see that. We are too self-consumed and suffering from the curse to recognize Your love and mercy. I believe in You; I embrace the gospel; and I want to follow Christ. Help me put Him first today and be second.

Psalm 150

For Your abundant greatness and powerful acts (saving me is one of them) You should be praised! You, Lord, should be praised in every way and for everything and in every place.

You, Lord, should be praised…

IN the sanctuary and in Your heavens (1);

FOR Your powerful acts and abundant greatness (2);

WITH trumpets, tambourines, lyre and harp, dancing, flute and strings, cymbals (3-5);

BY everything that breathes (6)!! …that would be me!

Be praised today, Lord, in my life and in the life of Your people. ~

Journal for 11/29…Exaltation

5:34 AM

Father…and I am so glad that I can call You, the Creator and God of everything my Father…I want to start my day with You on my mind. I'm mindful of Your Lordship and try to conceive of Your majesty, power, and light. Thank You for my salvation and the relationship I have with Your Son, Jesus Christ. Help me, Spirit of God, to abide well in Jesus today.

Psalm 149

Lord, You rightfully enjoy, and deserve, the exaltation of Your people. Let me be one that exalts You today in some way. You take pleasure in Your people (4), though sometimes I don't see how. We are so worldly and "self" motivated in our corporate activities. Lord, I pray that our assembly will praise and honor You…that it will give You cause for pleasure. I'm thinking ahead to the worship time(s) we have coming up this weekend. Let the exaltation of God be in our mouths (6).

I pray for two friends who will be undergoing medical tests this week, Lord. I pray for Your healing in their bodies, but for Your presence and grace even more.

Lord Jesus, You are the Reconciler. Several marriages and friendships are in need of Your reconciliation today.

In the Name of Jesus Christ, and the power of His blood, I pray for a hedge of protection around my life and my family today. Guard us and help us to please You with our decisions and activities. Help us resist the devil so that He flees from us.

My church family has a great opportunity this weekend to demonstrate faith and worship in some ways that are new and uncommon for some. Don't let us miss this opportunity. Begin working now in our hearts and families to convict us of sins we need to forsake and vows we need to keep -- to You and one another in Your church.

Help me abide in You today, Lord, and have You on my mind and heart. I am second.~

Journal for 11/30…Praise to the Creator

5:34 AM

Chilly morning, Lord. Thank You for the seasons and cycles of life. Even this fallen world enjoys the basic cycles of beauty and life that You created. How awesome the New Earth must be.

Psalm 148

You, Lord, set all creation in its place; all You did is give the command and all things were created (5). And nothing You created will pass away unless and until You say so (6). You set all created things in position forever and ever. That's just the way it is. Yes, we tarnished it with our sin, but You will aright that disorder some day along with Your salvation of those who put their trust in You.

You, and You alone, are to be exalted. Your majesty covers heaven and earth. (13) Help, Lord Jesus, to exalt You today in my heart and life.

Father, You created me, then You re-created me in Christ when I put my simply childlike trust in You. Forgive my sins and make me clean in the Name of Jesus Christ and through the power of His blood. You have the power to repair what I have broken.

Thank You, Lord, for so many undeserved blessings in my life, not the least of which is a personal relationship with You. Lord, I am drawing closer…please draw closer, too.

You are Creator; You have all the majesty. Be praised today as You deserve. I want to be second.~

Journal portion for 11/23…Thanks

6:58 AM

Lord God, what a wonderful gift I have in Your Word. You are the master gift-giver! Everything I have is a gift, unearned and undeserved, from You. The world is in crisis--our nation is in crisis--but You said in Your Word that it would be that way before You come. You said that in this world, on this earth, we would have tribulation. The good news for believers is that there's a New Earth coming. Again, completely undeserved.

Psalm 143

Hear my prayer, Lord. You know what I have been seeking Your will about. (1) No one alive is righteous in Your sight (2) so my prayers are based on Your faithfulness and Your righteousness, certainly not mine.

As I look back, Lord, I recall the days of old (5). Previous times of Your faithful deliverance, answered prayer, and personal help. If You were big then, You are still big today. You will not leave me hanging without reason.

Thank You for letting me experience Your faithful love in the morning time (8). Thank You for this time when we talk and think about things together. Here's my prayer today (I couldn't say it better myself): Reveal to me the way I should go, because I long for You (8). Show me Your ways; Your direction; Your Kingdom priorities for my life.

Holy Spirit, teach me to do Your will…lead me on level ground (10).

I thank You, Lord, for my salvation -- the greatest gift of all for a man otherwise lost to life for eternity. Thank You for my family: my parents who introduced me to You; my wife and children that serve You. Thank You for my health. I certainly don't take it for granted, Lord. Thank You for my ministry…for letting me fit into Your Kingdom work.

Praise God from Whom all blessings flow; praise Him all creatures here below; praise Him above ye heavenly host; praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. Amen.

Give thanks with a grateful heart, give thanks to the Holy One, give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ, His Son. And now let the poor say I am rich, let the weak say I am strong, because of what the Lord has done for us!

May this day be one of thanksgiving, prayer, and abiding in You, Lord. And may Your words abide in me. Today, help me be second.~

Journal for 11/22…Prison

5:30 AM

Psalm 142

You are certainly gracious, Lord, to give me insight and wisdom through Your Word and Your Spirit. The world is filled with conflict and adversity -- some, I must confess is of my own making. Like prison, the earth has its own culture and the prisoners are willing to harm one another to advance themselves; to advance their personal agenda; to advance their own selfish ends. Adversity, sin, and conflict is like a prison that binds up our freedom and joy and keeps us from experiencing the liberation that is in You. Free me from this prison so that I can praise Your Name.(7) You, Lord, came to set the captives free! Now I understand.

And one day I will be free completely and in Your presence. I will take my place among the others who have been freed and give You the praise You so rightfully deserve. Until then, help me to live for You in this prison and show others the way to liberation.

“If only You would bless me, extend my border, let Your hand be with me, and keep me from harm, so that I will not cause any pain." This is my humble prayer today, Lord. Give me grace, enlarge my impact for the Kingdom, guide and correct me with Your hand, and protect me in the Name of Jesus Christ and the power of His blood.

Please, help me be second.~

Journal for 11/21…His Kingdom come

5:38 AM

My Father in Heaven…hallowed and praised is Your Name. I pray for a manifestation of Your Kingdom and Your will on earth. I pray for this in the life of believers and Your church… and in me.

Psalm 141

Listen to my voice when I call to You today (1), and may my prayers be pleasing to You and honor You like incense that rises up and pleases the senses (2). Help me to abide in You and for Your Words to abide in me. Do not let my heart turn to, and love, anything evil (4).

I pray for Your protection for me and my family. Keep us from the snares and deceit of evildoers (9)….including Your enemy and mine, the devil.

You will, Lord. That's what I want in the long run: Your will to be done; for Your Kingdom to be magnified; for Your Kingdom to be expanded. May the decisions I make, and the circumstances that would honor You, occur for Your glory.

Begin to even now to convict our hearts as we approach the Prayer Weekend. Bring Your people to a place of confession and forsaking of sin. Show Yourself to be real, mighty, and active on behalf of those who are called by Your Name..and call on Your Name.

I offer these prayers to You in the Name of Jesus Christ, Son of God, and the power of His blood. Help me be second.~

Journal portion for 11/18…Constant God

5:34 AM

My prayer today, Lord, goes up to a God that listens; One who is there. Thank You for always listening, even if I don't receive a response exactly how and when I want it. I know You hear me. Your Spirit even speaks to me through my spirit - a spirit, by the way, that is alive because of Your quickening! You are the One and Only Creator and Master…the Owner of everything. You own it; we simply borrow and use what is Yours.

Psalm 138

You, Lord, will fulfill Your purpose for me (8). Of that I'm sure. I'm not always clear on what Your purpose is, except in the big scheme of things. I know what You have called me to do, though I don't always do it well, but I'm not always sure of the details. But, then again, You will show me when it's necessary for me to know. The main thing is that I renew my mind and offer myself as a living sacrifice…and to abide in You and Your Word.

I know Your love is eternal and You won't abandon the work of Your hands or fail to keep Your promises. You glory is great and I will sing of Your praise (5). Increase my strength as You did David's (3), please.

You love is constant; Your faithfulness is constant (2) and You are constant. Praise goes to my constant, consistent heavenly Father. Because Your love and faithfulness are constant I know that the promises You have made about eternal life and Heaven are constant, too.

I pray that You will find some pleasure in the life of this inconsistent servant today, Lord. ~

Journal portion for 11/17…Malicious talk

5:40 AM

Psalm 137, Proverbs 17

Lord, may my fondest thoughts and highest praise be reserved for "Jerusalem"…the place where You dwell. (137.6) The world offers little joy except for the places and people where You are at work. One day, however, all the things that corrupt the earth will be done away with and believers -- because of Your grace -- will be with You in holiness. To You belong all the glory for what You have already done, and for what Your Word anticipates that You will do.

Malicious talk is so hurtful and unnecessary. It's one thing to see it in the public arena and politics, but it's so out of place (but common) among Your people. Help me to always "conceal offenses and promote love" and not gossip, which “separates friends” (17:9). Gossip is certainly a killer, Lord. It kills friendships, fellowship, worship, and reputations. Help me rebuke gossip and reject participation in it.

“If only You would bless me, extend my border, let Your hand be with me, and keep me from harm, so that I will not cause any pain." 1 Chronicles 4:10.

Be first today, Lord. I struggle to be second, but it's my heart's desire.

Journal portion for 11/16…His eternal love

5:36 AM

Majesty! Worship His Majesty! Unto Jesus be all glory and honor and praise. Majesty! Kingdom authority…You Lord are worthy of ALL praise. Adonai -- You are the Owner and therefore the Master of everything. We use and borrow what You've created, but it's not ours. Like a teenager that has "his" room, "his" car, "his" video games, "his" cell phone -- none of which he invested in or paid for. The real owner is the parent(s). We think what we have is ours because we use it. It is Yours -- all is Yours, Lord.

Psalm 136

Twenty-six times in this one Psalm it says "His love is eternal". I'm picking up a theme here, Lord.

Not only are You eternal, but Your love is eternal. Paul put it this way, "love never fails." True love never fails. What we call love, Lord, is not the same thing, for it fails with the circumstances and our feelings. Thank God, Your love never fails. I fail far too often, but Your love doesn't fail me. You still love me.

When I am down, discouraged, and disappointed, You still love me…and will eternally! I must remember that You love me no matter what.

When I sin -- even deliberately and willfully -- You still love me. So, please, Lord, forgive my sins…all my sins…and cleanse me by the washing of Your Word and the power of Your blood. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit (whose first fruit is love). Help me to remind mindful of Your eternal love. Be first, Lord. I want to be second.~

Journal for 11/15…Who Chooses?

5:34 AM

Father, another day. Here's praying that it be a day of praise and thanksgiving to You. You alone should receive praise and glory, for You made it all; sustain it all; and all things will find their fulfillment in You. Thank You, Father, for salvation. Thank You for Jesus Christ and the chance we all have to find forgiveness and reconciliation. It's all You!

Psalm 135

Praise certainly does belong to You, for You choose whomever You wish. We mortals think the choice is ours, Lord, to receive or reject You. But it is You who have chosen us…You have chosen me! As You told Your disciples, we don't choose You, You choose us -- to be with You and then live for You.

Of course, You know it's hostile here. Even in areas where there are so many "Christians". We are even hostile toward each other! It's driving me crazy, Lord (figure of speech).

Help me keep my eyes on You today, Lord. Fill me with Your Spirit and Your encouragement. Answer my prayers if they are worthy and if they comply with Your will.~

Journal portion for 11/14…Some Praise

5:45 AM

Father, I want to thank You for so much, but this morning for the relationship You have drawn me into. I am thankful that You reached out and pulled me in. Without You I am nothing and I have no future…no purpose. You gave me a lot when You gave me Yourself.

Psalm134

Praise at night is certainly fitting. You should be praised all the time -- and when time is over. My hands and my heart will be lifted up to You today and tonight. Help me to praise You without ceasing…to pray without ceasing…to make intercession without ceasing. I am second.~

Journal for 11/11…the poor

5:41 AM

Almost slept through the night, Lord…but tried to pray for some folks as long as I was awake. Thank You for always being there. You are God…the one and only God. And yet, You take a personal interest in me -- my soul, my life, my day, my feelings, my circumstances. Thank You for the blessings and benefits that come from knowing You. If only I could live up to the service and worship You so rightfully deserve.

Psalm 41

Happy is the man that cares for the poor (1)…I believe that to be true, Lord. Christians have the responsibility to care for those that are truly poor. The problem I struggle with is this: The government has taken on that role and robbed the church of its responsibility--or maybe we abdicated and abandoned our responsibility years ago…I don't know. But this is the problem. I can't tell who is really "poor". So many of the poor have wide screen TVs and cable; they choose to be poor and not work; they game the system and take advantage of the true givers in society.

Lord, I have no doubt there are truly poor people -- like that home in Waco for adults with mental disabilities, they have no one and no money except that home--but Lord, so many people are not, or don't have to be, economically poor.

Now, there are those that are "poor in spirit" -- I can help those people should they want to be helped! Lord, give me the wisdom to help the truly poor, but also give me the resources, too. All I have is yours.

I don't have much money (I'm rich compared to most of the world), but if I don't use my resources for You now, it will be too late in eternity to do it. Give our church the resources to do a better job in ministry, discipleship and worship.

Thank You for the jobs you've given at least 3 members of our church this past week--others are still trying. Please bless them with good paying jobs. The ones I'm thinking of would be tithers, too, Lord.

Well, I guess what I'm asking for is wisdom and resources. LOL… who wouldn't want those?! Whatever You provide me with, Lord, remind that it's all for You. Be Lord today. I am second.~

Journal for 11/20…God is great!

5:39 AM

Father, You are the One and Only God. Yes, there are other "gods" that people put before; and there are religions that pray to and worship false gods. But You are the Creator and should be recognized and worshiped by everyone. No one has done what You have done. You gave Your Son to die for me. He did it willingly and in obedience, and now I can have eternal life. Be praised by all Your people today around the world. Help them…so many are sick, hungry, persecuted, and dying.

Psalm 70

Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You (4), no matter what their circumstances. I know that's easy for me to say, living in relative freedom and comfort; but this is where You put me for now, and I will rejoice in You. Anyone who is truly saved will say, "God is great!" Hurry to help us, Lord God…You are our help and our deliverer (5). David said "Lord do not delay" and John ended the Revelation with "Come quickly, Lord Jesus". Your people anticipate and pray for Your help and salvation!

Help me be second, Lord.~

Journal for 11/09…just a vapor

5:39 AM

Psalm 39

Father, You are eternal. It's hard for a man to grasp that concept of eternal…forever. We think 70-80 years is a long time, and if we are suffering it seems even longer. But we are only a vapor (5). In the big scheme of things--eternal things--we are vapor. You should be praised for being the Almighty God and having the nature of immortality and life. We are the opposite.

If this life is going to mean anything, it will be related to You and how we worshiped and lived for You. Men frantically rush around gathering possessions…possessions that end up in someone else's hands! (6) "Things" are not eternal, You are.

Lord, help me be less concerned with "things" today and more concerned with You and my relationship to You. I still feel a little under the weather, but rejoice that I have the capacity to feel at all! Prepare my heart and mind for intercession and in leading my church in the practice of intercession. Our/my relationship to You is the most important thing of all, not what we earn, have, or can possess.

My hope is in You, (7) deliver me from all my transgressions (8). Fill me with Your Spirit, Lord and help me nuture the relationship I have with You. May the time I spend as a vapor translate into something eternal in Your Kingdom. I am second.~

Journal for 11/08…His Majesty

5:38 AM

Father, I'm feeling a little "under the weather" today, but I'm reminded of how healthy I really am, and that the body you designed for me will fight this little bug off in a few days. Your whole creation is amazing! Substituted for 7th grade science yesterday and am reminded of the geological wonders that pour from Your genius. You, indeed, are an awesome God…the only true and majestic God.

Majesty…worship His majesty; unto Jesus give glory and honor and praise!

Lord, it's still a battle down here. The earth is still fallen and cursed. Sin continues to grip humanity and plagues Christians, too. One day we'll be delivered from all this and worship Your majesty in person -- face to face. And all because of the debt You paid for me on the cross. Indeed, majesty belongs to You!

Psalm 37

"Darril, a man's steps are established by the Me, and I take pleasure in Your way. Though you fall, you will not be overwhelmed, because I hold Your hand."(23) "Turn away from evil and do good…I do not abandon my faithful ones." (27,28)

Thank You, Lord for the encouragement and promise of Your presence. I am only a "faithful" or "righteous" one because of the faithfulness and righteousness of Jesus Christ. All that I have of eternity value was gracious given by Him; imputed unto me. That's why I will trust that You establish my way and help me when I fall to not be overwhelmed.

You are always first; make me second.~

Journal for 11/07…a Morning Prayer

5:47 AM

Good morning, Father. Thank You for all You have done for me; for all the blessings given without merit. I would like to praise You today because of Your grace and mercy, forgiveness and protection.

Psalm 37

I want to be counted today among those who trust in You (3) and that does what is good. I want to take delight in You (4), not the world, not my works, but in You. Make the desires of my heart conform to Your will and Your ways. Help have the mind of Christ more and more.

Help me be patient, even "silent" (7) before You and wait expectantly for You and what You are working out in my life.

In the Name of Jesus Christ, Your Son, my Risen Savior, hear my prayers and fill me with Your Spirit. Lord Jesus, walk with me and talk with me throughout the day. It's not easy to be second, for my nature is to put myself first. But today You be first. I am second.~

Journal for 11/02…Trust and obey

5:36 AM

Psalm 32

This is really quite amazing, Lord…the forgiveness of sins and help. You are truly amazing, Lord. You forgive transgressions and cover sin (1) -- that alone is cause for praise and much thanksgiving. In addition to that You give instruction and show me the way to go (8). Your eye is on me and You give me counsel (I'm not always the best listener, Lord). Your faithful love surrounds me because I trust You. Sure, my trust is not as mature and complete as it should be; but I trust You more each day.

Trust and obey, for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey.

Today, I will be glad in the Lord and rejoice (11) -- not because all my circumstances are good and happy, but because You are good; You are forgiving; You are there for me.

Be glorified today, Lord, as we talk. Help me to abide in You and Your Words abide in me. Be first, Lord Jesus…I am second.~

Journal for 11/01…Nothing to prove

5:34 AM

Father, You have been so good to me. In affliction and conflict You have always loved and cared for me. You did not always seem to be there (22) but You were always watching, protecting, teaching…You saw it all (7).

Psalm 31

I was reminded today, Lord, of a time when I was in my 20s and our church has in a tight spot. We needed a larger building along with some other things. I read verse 8 in my devotional times and began to use it in my prayers: "You set my feet in a spacious place." I know You remember, Lord, but I want You to know that I remember, too. Soon, quite by "coincidence", we learned a school was vacating the church building they had been using. Being the first to inquire of the owners, we were able to get our "spacious place" and increase our ministries and service to You and to others.

So many other times, Lord, You have helped me…You have nothing to prove to me. Calvary alone proves Your love and mercy for me. Many other occasions remind me of Your provision and goodness. So much so, that if You don't answer every prayer, if you don't rescue me every time, it doesn't matter. I remain indebted to you on so many levels and will always believe. You have nothing to prove to me. You have already given me far more than I deserve.

That's why You should be first and I should be second.~

Journal for 11/31…protection

5:38 AM

Wonderful Father! You love me with an everlasting love; Your kindness far exceeds anything I deserve; and Your mercy…well, Your mercy embraces me and holds me up.

Psalm 91

Where else can I go, Lord, in times of distress but to You. The world offers no solace, that's for sure. Even people that love and support me have limitations. But You, Lord, have my best interest in mind and the power to make the difference. My refuge is in You (2) and Your faithfulness is always a protective shield (4), even in difficult times.

Help me abide in You today, Lord Jesus, and Your Words abide in me. I want my life, like my prayers, to glorify You somehow.

Be Lord today… I am second.~

Journal for 10/28…be near

5:38 AM

Good morning, Father. You are always here no matter what. You created everything, including me, and oversee all that You have made. You never violate our freedom to choose and we've made some bad choices, Lord. The world is fallen because of people like me. Yet in Your grace and mercy You provided a way back…a way back to You. So, I thank You this morning for Your Son, Jesus Christ, who died and rose again for me…in my place. Forgive my sins in His Name, and help me to remain focused today on the things that matter. To that end, please fill me with Your Spirit and His wisdom.

Psalm 88

You are the God of my salvation, (1) and I must remember that when I call to You. If You would concern Yourself with my greatest need, certainly You would care about the lesser things, too. I am a man without strength (6), at least not much strength of my own. Sometimes I feel like You aren't there; that You don't care; that You've abandoned me…but I will still pray in morning (13) and all day long (9). And I have to tell You that sometimes I feel like darkness and discouragement is my only friend (18). But I will remember what You have already done for me on the cross, and that in the big picture of things, You love me, have plans for me, and want to abide in me. Encourage me today, Lord. Show me a sign (87:17).

"Praise God from Whom all blessings flow; praise Him all creatures here below; praise Him above Ye heavenly host; praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost." To God be the glory, great things He has done; so loved He the world that He gave us His Son!

He me have an undivided mind today, Lord (86:11). I am second!~

Journal for 10/27…interceding

5:28 AM

Father…Of all the powers and authorities in the world -- in the universe -- You are above them all. You supersede all others in power, glory, and grace. Your kindness is more than I deserve, but You love me and desire to be with me. So, Lord, abide with me today. Help me to have an undivided mind (Ps86.11).

Psalm 87

The old city of Zion, Lord, reminds us of the New City that is coming. You will make perfect all that is crooked; right all the wrongs; and make clean the whole world…no longer under the curse and no longer fallen. The Most High Himself will establish her (5).

The past is behind me. The present challenges me. But the future -- the future you have for me -- will last forever. It is a future that makes facing today's challenges worth the sacrifice and effort. Help me to please You today.

There is so much to thank You for, Father. First, for Your Son. Thank You for my Savior and Friend. I cannot imagine the sacrifice He paid for my sin. Love has no greater example than that. Thank You for my life, my family (my wife in particular), my parents who introduced me to You, my health, and the opportunity to serve You.

I pray today for the believers in Iran -- Youcef, in particular, who may be executed for not denying his faith in You. I pray for believers in China, Iraq, Somolia, Yemen, Egypt and other places where persecution is rampant…where it's open season on Christians. How will we live, or die, when that happens in the U.S.? Believers here are soft and indifferent…worldly. Give wisdom to the Christians that serve in the government. Help them make the hard decisions about economic and social and faith issues.

In my life, Lord, be glorified somehow today. I am second.~

Journal for 10/26…A servant’s prayer

5:37 AM

Master… I want it to be about You today. I want to be a servant, a helper, like You are. I want to glorify the Father like You did, and You still do. You said the Father is glorified if I bear fruit in my life and ministry. I can't do that alone. I have no power or ability that doesn't come from You. Your Spirit in me must do the work, so help me be a servant-vessel through whom He is able to bless others.

Psalm 86

This psalm is a simple one…a fitting prayer for my life today, Lord. Please listen to me and answer me, Lord, for I am needy in spirit. I have nothing, and can do nothing without You. Isn't that poverty, Lord…to be without something? I am nothing without You. Poor without You. Powerless without You. Even if I'm committed to being Your servant(2), Lord, I am fruitless without Your protection, grace (3), joy (4), and strength (16).

Here’s what I desire of You, Lord. First, I will praise You with my heart…I want You to be praised today (12); second, I want You to be honored by my life somehow (13); but I ask You for an undivided mind!(11) Teach me YOUR ways and help me be loyal to the One I serve (who served me by going to the cross).

Show me a sign (17) of Your goodness, Lord -- in my life, yes, but in and through my church, too.

Help me to glorify the Father, today. I am second.~

Journal for 10/25…it’s about Him

5:26 AM

Father, help me to focus on You today and not me, not my needs, not my desires. It's all about You, or should be. You are the center of my universe. You are light. You are life. You are love. Your glory is inconceivable by a mere mortal like me. Everything comes from You and is returning to You. You will deal with all things as You choose. Beside being the Creator and the Judge of all things…of me…You are also my Savior…

O the love that drew salvation's plan; O the love that brought it down to man; O the mighty gulf that God did span at Calvary! Mercy there was great and grace was free; pardon there was multiplied to me; there, my burdened heart found liberty at Calvary!

Psalm 85

Lord, You will provide what is good (12); but my focus, Lord should be on You, not Your provision. I don't want to look for Your benefits and blessings…I want to look for You! I want to know Christ, and the Father through Him. Fill me today with Your Spirit and forgive my sins. Help me see beyond myself and my circumstances to see You. My goal is know You and the power of Your resurrection (Phil 3:10). Focus: to know You.

Help me be second today.~

A Journal Portion for 10/24… I am a pilgrim

5:57 AM

Good morning, Father…there are good things and not so good things about this day. No matter what happens, though, I know You love me and that You have my best interest in mind. I must give You praise for Your overriding power and glory. The world is fallen and cursed because of me and people like me, but salvation and redemption come from You. There is a future. There is hope. There is a Savior.

Psalm 84

How lovely is Your dwelling place, Lord (1)… it's all about abiding in You, or You abiding in me. I am Your dwelling place now; I am Your temple. In and of itself this temple is not a fitting place for Your glory and goodness, but You put Your Spirit in me. Help me abide in You and Your Words abide in me. Help me to pray and talk with You. David thought the priests were the happiest people in the world because they lived in the temple (4)…and that they praised You continuously. Be praised today and every day.

The thing is, Lord, the world is not my home. I like to have a place, a routine, and sense of settledness. I guess everyone does. But home is where You are. It's the New Earth that is coming along with the New Jerusalem. This is a journey -- and a short one, too. The happiest people are the ones who depend on Your strength and whose hearts are set on pilgrimage (5). I have to treat this life with all its circumstances, adversities, and victories as a pilgrimage toward You. I am a pilgrim!

This pilgrim wants You to be first. I am second.~

Journal for 10/21…waking up!

5:40 AM

Father, You are over all the earth. You are its Creator and the One that makes life and light happen. It is a fallen world, but You have a plan. Some would call me silly or naïve, but I believe the Bible, Your Word, and all it says will come to pass. My understanding, of course, only goes so far. In the big scheme of things I know very little. But I am certain that one day evil will defeated and cast down; right and righteousness will prevail -- and last for all eternity on a New Earth.

Psalm 78:65-72

Sometimes it seems like You are sleeping and You just allow bad things to happen without notice. Then You awaken (65)…and when You do, the world knows it! I am learning that it's in those silent times that You are not just allowing evil to have its way, but You are doing some constructive work on me. Jesus, my Redeemer and Friend, was a "man of sorrows". How can I be like Him, and have the mind of Christ, without sorrow?

I was just a little boy and lost in my sin when You not only awakened to save me, but You woke me up to Your truth. Thank You, O Lord, for that! You gave me light and life. I believed You in such a simple and childlike way. I want to believe and trust You the same today. Wake up -- quicken -- my spirit to Your presence and love and grace.

Awaken today, Lord, in me. Fill me with Your Spirit and help me maintain an attitude of Christlikeness. It's not easy…it goes against my human nature; but You, Lord, have rescued and saved me from all that offends You. Now help me to reject it (all that offends You), too.

Be first, Lord. I am second.~

Journal for 10/20…Remembering God

5:52 AM

Psalm 78:40-64

Father, You have done wondrous things for Your people -- not just Israel, but for the United States. Much like Israel of old, America has been blessed, protected, and filled with Your goodness. Yet, we have forgotten our roots, our spiritual heritage. We have become warped like a faulty bow (57) because of our rebellion against You. Forgive our sins, Lord…both national and personal.

There was a point, Lord when You abandoned the tabernacle at Shiloh (60) -- the tent where You resided; where You met with Your people. I am Your tabernacle now. I am Your temple. I pray that You would fill this temple, this tent of meeting, with Your Spirit. Do not abandon me and leave me alone. In the Name of Jesus Christ, help me to present my body, Your temple, as a living sacrifice, and may I be holy and acceptable unto You (Rom 12.1). Renew my mind, for it surely has a bent toward the world without Your Word and Your Spirit.

The history of humanity, America, the church, and my family demonstrate Your grace, goodness and kindness…and patience. You love us/me more than I can ponder. May Your glory always shine through, Father. Thank You for all You have done…and all You will do.

I am second.~

Journal for 10/19…general praise and discussion

5:44 AM

Psalm 78:32-39

Father, I sit here in the calm of the morning, drinking my coffee, reading Your Word…as if all is right with the world. There are other believers in this fallen world that face hardship, persecution, pain, separation, even death because of their faith in You. They will not relent in their faith that is tested every day.

My faith is tested every day, too, but in different ways. Like the Israelites coming out of Egypt You have blessed and provided for me…sure it's been tough sometimes, because, after all this is a cursed earth I live on. They took Your blessings for granted and rebelled anyway. They were tempted to take advantage of Your promises and their hearts were insincere toward You (37). I don't want to follow their path. I want to be sincere toward You; I want to follow You; I want to please You with my life.

You are compassionate and have atoned for my guilt; You have not destroyed me or let me down one single time (38). How many times have You turned Your anger aside (38), for me and other believers.

I am grateful that You remember that I am only flesh, a wind that passes (39), but that's no excuse. Thank You for being my Redeemer. I am grateful for Your salvation, compassion, and mercy. Help me abide in You today. There will be competition for my attention, but help me defer my priorities to You. Be first. I am second.~

Journal for 10/17…Fathers

5:48 AM

Psalm 78:1-31

Lord, You are a wonderful Father…You love Your children and do what is best for them. Sometimes fathers do what is best for their children when they do not understand, or when they are not pleased. But a loving father does what is right and what is best for his children's future. Eventually they will see the reasons.

You are that kind of Father…You do what is best for me whether I understand it or not; whether I like it or not. I particularly don't care for Your discipline (just sayin'). But one thing I know: You love me.

I pray for the fathers and men that I know. I pray that they will obey You and then pass Your Word and Your ways to the next generation, to a "future generation" (6). I pray that we will pass along our confidence in God, and that we'll help our younger people to not forget Your works (7), and help them keep Your commands.

One generation does not have to follow the rebellion of the previous generation (8). Strengthen and encourage the fathers I have influence with. May we all be filled with Your Spirit and pass Your favor along to succeeding generations.

Be first today, Lord. I am second.~

Journal portion 10/17…He is good

Psalm 77

Father…You have been good to me. Without a doubt, You have done far greater than I deserve. Why you love me and give me another chance is beyond my human understanding. I also know You love the foulest sinner, the meanest person, and the worst offenders…people that aren't my friends. Jesus died for us -- for me -- while still in sin. And the most amazing thing is this: You want to be close to me; have a relationship with me; and draw near to me. Just amazing.

There have been times when You would not let me sleep (4) because of trouble and conflict. And I couldn't figure out why You didn't just rush in and rescue me (9). But I always remember Your works in the past and Your ancient wonders (11). I reflect and remember the many times You helped me; walked with me; and redeemed me.

I don't see the big picture You see. I don't always understand what it is You're doing, or what You're trying to accomplish in me, or why You would allow certain things to occur. When those times of confusion and doubt come, help me to reflect and help me to remember the things You've done before…starting with my salvation!

So many blessings that You've provided out of Your love and mercy. Truly, You must delight in blessing even me. There's no other explanation. Today, I want to abide in You and let Your words abide in me. I am second.~

Journal portion for 10/14…desecration

5:45 AM

Father, You have such patience. I get sick and tired of me before You do! Thank You for understanding the frailties and disadvantages I have to work with. That does not excuse my bent for rebellion and the desire to conform to this fallen world. I embrace the gospel and believe entirely in Your Son, Jesus Christ, for the forgiveness of my sins. Help me be less conformed to this world but transformed by the renewing of my mind; let prove what is Your good, perfect, and acceptable will…at least for my life.

Psalm 74

You have enemies, Lord, and as a result Your people come under attack. In some places they persecute, torture and murder the faithful. In other places they mock, ridicule and marginalize us. Even in Your congregation there are those who do not have the respect they should for the house of prayer…"they utterly desecrated the dwelling place of Your Name." (7)

In Egypt, for example, Lord, embrace the true believers whose houses of worship are being torched and looted, and believers are being killed. But in America, Lord -- right here -- there are people who have no respect for the house of prayer, its divine purpose, or its leaders. Be with my Christian brothers, empower them, around the world that face grueling circumstances because they will not deny You.

Lord Jesus, help me to always respect Your Bride, the church, and those You call to serve You; help me love and uphold all believers that give attention to serving and sacrificing for You and the Bride You gave Your life for.

Be glorified today, Lord, on earth as You are in heaven. I am second.~

Journal for 10/13…being second in the church

Psalm 133

So, Lord, I pick up this publication to see what's in it. This month is dedicated to who is in charge in the church…meaning that there is adversity in the Body of Christ; turf wars over who is in charge of what; territorial conflicts over who should have the final say. Then, I pick up Your Word and today's Psalm starts off: How good and pleasant it is when brothers can live together! It ends with: For there (brotherhood) the Lord has appointed blessing--life forevermore. We tend to see more people avoid church in our culture than be drawn to it. The "blessing" of the Lord from our unity is missing.

What is missing is servanthood. What is missing is love. Forgive us, Lord, for our personal agendas, for our listening to and promoting gossip, for not loving others as You loved us.

Father, be glorified today -- I know You will, no matter what I do. But I'd like for my life to conform more readily to Your goodness and grace.

Lord Jesus, I want to abide in You today…walk with me, talk with me, sing with me. Fill me with Your Spirit. Be first, Lord, I am second…to other believers as well as to You.~

Journal for 10/12…Precious in His sight

Psalm 72

I come to You, Father, with the sound of rain, refreshing, needed rain outside. Thank You, for always taking care of Your creation. You made it and can do what You want with it. I'm just thankful that Your plan for the created order included salvation for me and all who believe.

You, Lord, care for the poor, afflicted, helpless, and oppressed. They are precious in Your sight (12-14). In filling me with Your Spirit today, help me to care more for the ones You care for…see value in the ones You consider precious.

Thank You for the blessings You have given me -- truly I am gifted by Your grace with salvation, my family, my ministry, and my health. I am promised a home where You will dwell with Your people -- including me -- and all things become new! I like new.

Be first today, Lord…I'm trying to be second.~

Journal portion for 10/11…renew, transform

5:48 AM

Father, You have been generous to me throughout my life. Today, I give You praise for Your giving nature and grace. You rule from Heaven and always will, yet, You bring Yourself to be personally involved in my life. You have blessed me beyond measure. I tend to complain when things aren't perfect, but how can they be in this fallen world. What I should focus on is the way You have blessed me.

Psalm 101

I will sing of Your faithful love and justice, Lord (1) and I will pay attention today to the way of integrity (2). I will not set anything godless before my eyes (3) intentionally. In this cursed world unwholesome images and godless things will appear through the course of a day, and people say and do things that are not Spirit-led, but I will not be the one today to set godless things before me. Forgive my sins and fill me with Your Spirit. Let Your Word empower me and transform me -- renew my mind, Lord.

Be first today…I am second.~

Journal portion for 10/07… pursued or pursuer

5:53 AM

Psalm 7

Father, I thank You for all You have done for me. It's a battle here in this fallen world…a fallen world that I am a part of, was born into, and must live in for the time being. You have given me Your Spirit, Your Word and other weapons of warfare. Help me have the mind of Christ today in order to take a stand and stand my ground.

It occurs to me that we all have pursuers, (1) Lord. Sometimes there are people that never satisfied unless they hurt us, destroy our reputation, take our money, and cost us dearly. Some even purport to be our brothers in Christ. But there are pursuers like addictions and sins that just chase people down -- won't leave them alone for a second. Lord, be with all my friends that fight their addictions today, whatever they may be. And those that are drawn to the "sins that so easily beset us" (Heb12:1).

Lord, I want to become the pursuer today, not the pursued. I want to pursue the mind and thoughts of Christ. I want to pursue Your comfort that I can pass along to others. I want to pursue activities and ideas that honor You. Help me pursue Christ today as I work, minister, move about and take care of today's business. Help me pursue second place. ~

Journal Portion for 10/06…troublemakers

5:37 AM

You are my heavenly and eternal Father, and I am happy that I can come to You this morning and actually talk with You. I am able to tell You myself that I trust Your grace, compassion, and mercy. I don't need a special access code other than the blood of Jesus and His good Name to enter Your presence. Words fail me, human language falls short of describing Your glory and majesty. Of course, I've never seen Your glory (yet) like John and Isaiah, but I have their revelation of it. Your glory even caused Moses' face to glow! All of this is recorded in the Bible, Your revealed Word, and I believe it. I will see You in person soon enough and worship You face to face.

Face to face with Christ my Savior; face to face, what will it be, when with rapture I behold Him, Jesus Christ Who died for me? Face to face I shall behold Him far beyond the crystal sea; face to face in all His glory -- jesus Christ who died for me!

Proverbs 6

Lord, in my time I've seen, much to my dismay, Christians that deliberately stir up trouble in the church…either against someone, about an issue, or just about anything. Trouble-makers they are. Somehow they have their own personal agenda, not Your agenda. They are first, not You. Forgive me if I have ever done that because Your Word says You hate that and that it's detestable to You (19). The church is Your Bride; the members are Your redeemed and called out ones; the ministers and elders are gifted by You. How can anyone treat Your Bride and Your people that way? Yet, they do it without a second thought…like it's normal and acceptable behavior. Forgive us, Lord, for what we have done to Your church. You hate it when trouble-makers stir up trouble among brothers.

Abide with me, today, Lord. Fill me with Your Spirit. Help me remember and obey Your commands, for your commandments and Your teachings are a lamp and a light. They are the way of life and they protect me (23,24). Thank You for Your Word; Your wisdom; Your calling to follow You. Help me deny myself, take up my cross and follow You today. Have the preeminence in all things and make me second.~

Journal for 10/05…just talking

5:30 AM

Father…You are my Creator and my Savior. You have always been, and will always be above everything You are above everything in power, yes, but in goodness and holiness and kindness. You ask me to be long-suffering because You have been long-suffering with me! Thank You for getting me through yesterday.

While I'm thinking about it, Lord. Yussef, the pastor in Iran, is in the hands of cruel and unjust men, trumping up charges against him so they can execute him. Fill him with Your Spirit no matter how it plays out. But I think of so many other believers today whose lives are lived in constant threat of persecution and fear. My problems are so petty and inconsequential compared to those who suffering, even languishing in jail because of their faith in You.

When we all get to heaven, what a day of rejoicing that will be! When we all see Jesus we'll sing and shout the victory!

Psalm 65

Praise is rightfully Yours, Lord…all the promises that people make to You, and before You, should be kept (1). How can we expect Your favor if we cannot be trusted to follow through? I'm certainly glad that You hear my prayers (2). Sometimes it doesn't seem like it, but I know You move on a different clock than I do.

You atone for my rebellions and have chosen me in Christ to serve You…there are blessings that natural flow from that truth (3,4). I am satisfied with You, but are You satisfied with me? I am not. But you answer me in righteousness (5), though my prayers are not completely offered in "righteousness" ( a little self-serving sometimes).

I love this: (9) You visit the earth and water in abundantly, enriching it greatly. (Does that mean You must favor New England right now over East Texas??) Hey, You gave me a sense of humor. :-)

The bottom line is that You have, and will, take care of us…my family, my church family, and my friends. Thank You for my health, Lord; my salvation; a ministry and ability to do it; my family, past and present; my wife of 41 years; and for Your guidance over the years. I am counting on You to guide me still. I need Your wisdom and Your thoughts on some things.

Let's walk and talk together today. Fill me with Your Spirit and remove the mounds of worldliness and crud that muck up our relationship. Help me have the mind of Christ today…

Oh be careful little eyes what you see…be careful little feet where you go…be careful little hands what you do…for the Father up above is looking down with love, so be careful Darril what you see, where you go, what you do.

Be first today, Lord…pick up my spirits with Your presence. I am second.~

Part of my Journal for 10/04…focus

5:37 AM

Father…to begin with I want to thank You. I am grateful for Your kindness toward me. I tend to be inconsistent in a lot of ways, but You know about it and love me anyway. You, however, are always dependable, consistent, and true to form. For that I give You praise. How awful it would be to get up in the morning and wonder what kind of mood the Creator and Sustainer of life is in!

Proverbs 4

"Guard your heart above all else, for it is the source of life." (23) Lord, I want to love You above the world -- above myself. I want my affections and loyalty to be to You, and You alone. I want to be Yours no matter where I am or where I serve, on earth or in heaven. Don't let me love the world and be conformed to it…help transform and renew my mind with every verse I read and meditate on. I want my eyes to look forward (25) and not deviate from the purposes of Your kingdom for my life. I will try and carefully consider the path that I take, but need Your wisdom, guidance, and clear bidding.

And He walks with me, and He talks with me, and He tells me I am His own; and the joy we share as we tarry there -- none other has ever known.

It's going to be a busy day and a busy week. There's a lot of details to remember and things to be worked out. Help me get it all done and glorify You in the process. And I sure don't want the busy-ness to distract me from consciously abiding in You. Talk with me. Walk with me. Be first. I am second.~

Partial Journal for 10/03…loyalty

5:47 AM

Proverbs 3

Father…You bless me this morning with the knowledge of Your salvation. No matter what happens today, I have Your redemption, Your grace, and Your mercy. This is not because of any merit of my own, but because of Your grace and the merit that is imputed to me by Jesus Christ, Your Son. My only merit is what You have given me in Jesus. You rule it all in majesty and honor. You can do no wrong. Your kingdom will prevail. These are some of the certainties I have today.

Loyalty, Lord, is what You honor (3) and faithfulness is what You encourage. Fill me with the power of Your Spirit and make loyalty my trademark from now on. My first loyalty is to You. You are first, I am second. Help me to be faithful to You and to my calling today.

My heart tends to fear circumstances and trust in my own wits; but I want to trust in You with my whole heart (5). I know that You would never leave me alone or disengage from my life and the circumstances that I face. Walk with me; talk with me; let us think together. I trust You…help me trust You more.

Abide with me today, Lord. Give me the mind of Christ and help me keep my focus as I study, pray, rest, and work. Thank You for the assurance of Your love and compassion. If anyone needs it, it's me. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for all You have done for me. ~